What I could tell my 21 year old self!

(A Poem)

I have to tell you that this time in my life… here at this AGE…
I’ve come back to myself.

I have to say… it out loud so that I can feel the words take shape in my mouth take shape in my thoughts and know that they are REAL.

I have to tell you… that this version of me is one who has given herself over fully, who has surrendered, burned it all down and survived to danced in the flames.

I have to tell you… that I saw all this possible from years and miles away, and while at first I turned and ran…packed bags with weapons drawn, I chose instead to STOP and let-it take me.  My Dreams.  Without a conversation of do I deserve it, could I really have it.  Will I be happy. I just continued to walk forward and let-it happen & at times with open wounds and all.

I have to tell you… in all these years I’ve shed more skins than I knew I had. With each shedding showing me a glimmer of my authentic self, to keep as a light to find my way through the shadows.

Now to have arrived it feels like all those experiences are mine…

Forever in my memory.
Forever in my tool kit.

I am ready for whatever comes next.

And I just wanted to tell you.

Do you ever doubt that too much has happened, that you can never move past, to get what you really want?

I’m here and I just have to tell you
IT’S NOT TRUE!

What would you tell you 21 year old self if you could?

XX Kathy